Rambling

Trent and I were released from Nursery. I really will miss those kids, I love them. When I first got into nursery the kids would scream or were really shy to come in, but one by one I got them coming to me and even trent. They were a great class and they ended up coming right into class, without a fit! I always would play a cd of primary songs and always wanted them to know how much Jesus loves them. While I will miss it, I am ready for the break. We have been in nursery/sunbeams for our whole marriage (8) years! I know go to class, and can't believe how fast Church is going by! I enjoy going and have gotten Austin to be quite during sacrament by rubbing his head. Now We just need to get Faith to sit still.. yeah right.

Friendship is the cooperative and supportive relationship between people, or animals. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, affection, and respect along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as the exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for some, the practical execution of friendship is little more than the trust that someone will not harm them


I am so lucky to live in such a great neighborhood. I have some of the best friends out here that really care and accept me for me. They have understanding and caring hearts. I'm not sure if they know how much I appreciate them and I want them to know that I do so much, I just want them to know what a great example they are to me. For examples,I remember being really sick one day, and my mom lived too far away and I wasn't sure how I was going to be a mom that day. I had one of my friends take my baby and bring me soup. It was heaven. Both the soup, and taking the baby! I will always remember that because it is normally something a mother would do, and this friend mothered me when I needed it most. There has been many friends who have helped me physically, emotionally, or have made me feel important. Another one of my friends is having a baby soon and I can't wait to see that little angel. It's my turn to hog the baby! jk I loved that she loved mine as much as I did. That made me feel special. I have had other friends call and knock on the door for a visit when little did they know, I needed it. I think I live in the best neighborhood here. I have a sister in law who lives out of state, and I know that if she can surround themselves in good friends they do become your family away from family.

SO, now that I don't have facebook, and if you didn't know I don't have it anymore.. where have you been? I have got to say, I actually have gotten a lot done. I moved Austin downstairs to a new room, which required me to clean out junk that has been here since we moved in. I have gone through Austin and FAith's baby blessings and put all the sheets together to make one sheet. ( I had everyone write down what they heard at the blessing, and sadly I hadn't put them all together till now 5 years later) I have caught up on my laundry~ That is a BIG one. I do miss out on somethings. First thing, I feel like I don't know what is going on with everyone anymore. I don't miss being on the computer too long however. That was addicting and my kids didn't get any mom time because of it. So, I check my email everyday for about ten minutes. Wow talk about going from hours to minutes on the computer. I am actually reading four books at the moment, only when the kids are asleep, playing, or I am bored. One of which is the book of mormon. I really can't put it down lately. It has become a story and I just want to know MORE. Going to Nauvoo has helped me realize some background of Joseph Smith and his family in his last days. I am also reading the NEw Testament so it's kinda nice to read what is happening while Christ is on the earth and the same time what another group of people are doing at that same time. (Nephites) Don't take me for being someone who reads this often, because it is truly a once in a blue moon thing that I need to work on. However, when you really dive into it it does become a story. Anyways now I am getting off track, my point is even though I check my email, I don't get any news. So come on people, send me an email once in a blue moon~ dizzyvertigo@hotmail.com

I have gone private... again I know. But I need your emails, because a couple people have asked to view it and I have forgotten the emails already. So leave your email here or email me at dizzyvertigo@hotmail.com and I will add you on.

I took my kids into the dentist this last week, and ended up going back four different times~ Agh. I was really proud of both of Hannah and Austin, when they got their cavities filled. They both hated the shot in the mouth, but they were really actually good while getting it. I was surprised. They both looked sick so I was glad I didn't end up giving them laughing gas because they probably would've puked on the dentist. DO you ever have those crazy moments when you start thinking of crazy stuff while watching your kids do something? While watching them get the shot, and me rubbing their hand for comfort, I thought of Dr.Mengle. If you don't know who he is google him. He is the #$%!!~$ doctor who did experiments on the jewish children in concentration camps. He treated the kids very nice so that they trusted him. THey had done many experiments without anesthesia and some died from it. It made me think, here I am as a person watching my children squirm getting ashot, how can anyone harm a child, person, by taking the gold out of their teeth, listening to them scream, and not care? There really is a lot of evil in this world. I tried not to think about it anymore, because by then my eyes were all watery and I felt sick to my stomach~! It got me thinking about why we are here. The whole plan. I read this book I got my brother " I am not perfect can I still go to heaven" And I tell you what, I get it. I finally get it. I have always known the answers and what is said, but I never fully understood until the lightbulb went off in my head. I don't have to be perfect. I just have to do my best. How many women out there (or men) have felt like you have to be perfect, people expect it of you, or you feel like you just aren't good enough so you fall? this book helped me more than it probably will my teenage brother. I could go on and on about it, but I think I will leave this post simple as that. Go get the book, read it for yourself and it will get you thinking.